Lazy Saturday

Today has been a nice, lazy Saturday. We haven't accomplished anything today. We did so much cleaning before company came last week that the house isn't in too bad of shape. Most of what we need to do this weekend is outdoor chores which can only be done morning or evening because of the heat. Oksana is in hour 3 of a nap. I'm glad she is having a good sleep, it's been a rough week for her. One of her very best friends is really upset with her right now. He's upset and she can't make it all right because he's upset that she didn't choose him to be the known donor. He is taking it as a personal rejection and he really thought he was *the* man in her life. It's been hard to explain that we don't want to be that close with the known donor. Her friend lives in town and we are afraid that because of his closeness to Oksana, it would be hard for him not to interfere into our parenting. I also have issues with it being someone she is so close to. I'm afraid the bond between them would be more than I could handle. He also really wants a child of his own so that also worries us. He can have a close relationship with our kid, in fact we welcome that, but not as a father. So, he's really upset which is making Oksana feel rotten. Oh well.

I think I want to go buy a video game. For the last 4 years I've been in school and unable to just play. I'm still in school but am waiting for feedback from the head of my dissertation committee on my proposal. So, until I get that feedback there isn't anything I can do for school. I have not known this feeling in so long I almost don't know what to do with myself. Yes, there are a million and one projects I've been putting off but....